oldest (Sunday, March 21, 2010 / 12:22 AM)
I have no idea where to start from, but I'm just gonna say it. I just woke up to the sound of music. And I recognize that voice, it is like one of my favourite YouTube singers. And my sis definitely DID not find out about him herself. The only reason she knew about him was because of me. I listen to his covers and downloaded his music. My point is, I HATE being first and get copied by someone else. I'm not saying I found out about this youtuber first, I'm just saying that whatever things that I find out about, my Sis just has to copy it. Why can't she have her own originality and be the first instead? Yea, I know what my parents are so gonna say, "God has a reason to make u the first child." u know what, I don't give a damn. Like c'mon, whats THAT reason? Coming second is just easier because the first always has to find out about it before the second one knows bout it. I mean like, look at half of her music, it's like most of the bands I listen to. Some bands my friends don't even know about. Take for example Armour For Sleep. I doubt u've never heard about them, but my sister has... BECAUSE OF ME.
Also, look at me when I was younger. The first time I ever went out to a shopping mall with friends was when I was p5. And it was only because it was a birthday party. It was only after that, I started going out more often, like in p6. But I was the first to ever ask my parents to allow me to go out, and they did. When I was in sec one, my Sis was in p5. She went out much more times than me. Only because she knew that my parents would allow her because they allowed me. But look, I was sec 1, that's 2 yrs different. Of course they would allow me, I'm old enough. But look at her, she's only p5. But they still allow her because if they don't, it'd be unfair to them. But have they ever thought about that being unfair to me?
Or that time when I had a sleepover. I was in sec one. My parents never allowed me to have sleepover before that, but they finally allowed in sec one. But my Sis, she was only p5 and she could already go. Why didn't my parents let me go when I was younger? why did I have to be the one to 'sacrifice' myself to let the other enjoy? I'm not trying to be selfish or anything. I just hate being the oldest or first because u miss out on most things. I just hate it, hate it, hate it!!!!!!! I hate being the oldest.
Signing off,
Claire
