one more thing (Saturday, January 10, 2009 / 9:32 PM)
lol... i just remembered one thing.last wednesday, i went to queensway with some of my teammates to get our jerseys. and i remembered something kinda stupid that i said. they wanted to talk bout a girl, but they knew that i was quite close to her so they asked me if i was in good terms with her. i said yes. then they told me they couldn't say it in front of me. i thought it was quite a good time to get something off my chest, something that i wanted to tell a long time ago. i waited for a moment. then i said,'but i don't like her.' my friends were quite confused. they were like,'you're in good terms with her, but you don't like her?'
actually, what i meant was that, i still talk to her a lot and follow her, but i don't like her. sometimes, one has to know that there is a limit in asking ppl to do things for you. you can ask ppl for a favour, but you can't always expect them to agree to it. you can't force ppl even when they say NO. you are not the queen. ppl just follow what you say, just so that they won't hurt your feelings. because, they know what it's like when ppl say NO to you. ppl put you in front of them, but that doesn't mean you can take advantage of that. it just ruins your friendship. you always say ppl are unfair to you, but your the one being unfair to them.
i'm saying all of these now because i want to tell some ppl not to take advantage of what you have. use those advantages wisely. i had enough. i just say YES to every favour even though it's something that i don't wanna do. it's because i don't want you to feel that i'm a friend who is not helpful. sometimes, i think too much of other's feelings that i don't even think of my own feelings. you know how it's like when you have to do something that you don't like? sometimes ppl ask for too much. i'm just like a puppet, or maybe a dog. ppl just control me, they control my life.
now she's taking over someone. i'm starting to get some control. i pity that someone whose also a friend of mine. everytime i see my friend following her, i feel really sad. everytime i say No to her, the person she'll go to is my friend. now my friend has to learn to take control of her own life.
signing off,
claire
